The
old always feels cozy, snug. With the new, you have to learn again. With the
new you have to become a child again. The new happens only to those who are
ready to become children again and again and again – because the old knowledge,
the old experience, the old life, will have no meaning in the new. It will be
irrelevant. You will suddenly feel ignorant facing the unknown. Hence the fear!
Hence the clinging to the past. Remember: the journey to truth is a journey
from the old to the new, from the known to the unknown, from the closed to the
open. And I can happen to you only in the pauses.
Words
are used to create the pauses – not vice versa. I am saying things and talking
to you just
to
give you an experience of silence. Those pauses are the most significant thing
that is being
delivered
to you, being transferred to you. Be available in those pauses.
They
will tear you apart. They will destroy you. That’s why I say I have come to
destroy, not to fulfill. But remember: the ONLY way to fulfillment is through
destruction. If you are destroyed utterly, only then will you be utterly new.
Through crucifixion is resurrection. Let me first become your crucifixion. Let
me first become your cross. And then the second thing follows naturally...
nothing has to be done about it. To die is to be reborn. Die in those pauses,
in those silences, in those gaps! In those gaps, MY meditativeness is flowing towards
you – receive it. Receive it with great joy. Receive it as you would receive a
guest, a cherished guest. Open the doors of your heart. And, yes, there will be
great chaos with it – I will bring chaos in you – but that is the only way
stars are born: out of chaos. I will bring great upheavals in your being, I
will uproot you from where you are, because that is the only way to transform,
to transplant you onto higher plenitudes of being.
And
there are higher and higher plenitudes, there is no end to it. This is an
eternal pilgrimage.
I know
fear is natural! But don’t get caught by it. Leave it aside. Move in spite of
it.
Always
remember: the difference between a courageous man and a coward is not that the
courageous
man has no fear and the coward has fear – no. That is not the difference. BOTH
have fear! in the SAME proportion. Then where is the difference? The difference
is that the courageous man goes in spite of the fear, and the coward stops
because of the fear. Both have fears! If you can find a courageous man who has
no fear, then how will you call him courageous? He will be a machine, not a
man. Only machines don’t have fear. But you don’t call machines courageous. How
can you call a machine courageous? Courage simply means that something is
happening in spite of the fear. The fear is there, the trembling is there, but
it is not stopping you, you are not being blocked by it. You use it as a
stepping-stone. Shaking, trembling, but still you go into the unknown.
To be
a sannyasin is to choose courage.
Both
possibilities exist in every human being! fear and courage. All will depend on
which you choose between the two. Never choose fear. It cripples. It paralyzes.
It destroys you without giving you a chance of resurrection. Courage will ALSO
destroy you, but that destruction is very creative – it will give you rebirth.
Fear
and courage, both destroy – but fear simply destroys. The seed simply goes
rotten. When you sow the seed of courage in the soil, then too it dies – but it
doesn’t go rotten. It dies... it dies into a new phenomenon. A sprout comes up.
Courage
will kill you as much as fear, but fear will simply kill you without giving you
a new life.
Courage
will give you a new life. Choose courage – always choose courage. Arduous it
is, but it is adventurous too. Difficult it is, uncomfortable, inconvenient it
is, but it brings
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