BUDDHA AND THE BEAST
Man is and KNOWS that he is, but knows not WHO he is.
Man is a constant process. Something is always happening, is always on the verge of happening.
Man is an excitement, an adventure, a pilgrimage.
No beast can ever miss its destiny. It is always predetermined. The beast has an absolute fate.
Nothing is going to be otherwise. The beast is pre-programmed. Man has no pre-programme but is
just an opening. A thousand and one things are possible. Hence the anxiety: ”To be this or to be
that? To go to the east or to the west? To live this way or to live that way? And what is right? And
what is going to fulfill me?”
Each moment man has to decide. And, obviously, when you decide, there is trembling. You can
always go wrong. In fact, the possibilities to go wrong are more. Out of one thousand and one ways, only one will be right. Hence great trepidation, anguish: ”Am I going to make it? Am I going to succeed in being myself? Or is it just going to be a long futile effort, and in the end frustration and failure? Will I be able to know life abundant? Will THIS life become a foundation for a greater life to come? Or is there nothing but death? Is there only the grave in the end, or something more?”
Man is an open being. EVERYTHING is possible, but NOTHING is certain. The beast is absolutely certain. It has a definition. Man has no definition. So when you ask me: WHAT EXACTLY IS MAN? you ask me a wrong question. Man is nothing exactly. He is just a vague longing, a very very vague dream of things to be, of things which may be possible, may not be possible. Man is a hesitation. Each moment man is gripped by hesitation, because any single step gone wrong will destroy your whole life.
Man can lose. No beast can ever lose. But because man can lose, man can gain too. They both
come together. Man can grow – man is growth. The mere perhaps can become actual. The potential can be transformed into reality. The seed can become a flowering. That which is just unmanifest can be manifested, and then there will be great splendor, great benediction.
The Buddha is, knows that he is, and also knows who he is. These are the three states of growth: the beast, the man, the Buddha. The beast has only one dimension – he IS, he exists, utterly unaware that he exists. Hence he cannot think of death. Death is not a problem for the beast. Death can only become a problem when you know that you are.
With that very knowing the fear arises that some day you may not be – because there was a time
when you were not, there will again be a time when you will not be. Your existence is momentary.
You can disappear any moment. You will disappear some day. Death is bound to happen. It is only
man who knows about death.
That’s why man creates religion. Religion is man’s response to the possibility of death. It’s man’s
effort to conquer death. No animal is religious, cannot be. Without the awareness of death religion
has no possibility. But before you can become aware of death, you will have to become aware that
you are. That’s a basic requirement.
So man knows he is – and also becomes aware and apprehensive that any moment he will not be.
Time is short. For the beast time is non-existential, time is not. The beast lives in a timeless world.
Each moment. Neither thinking of the past, nor imagining about the future.
Man cannot live in the present. He thinks of the past and all the nostalgia. Days that were golden
and are no more. And thinks, imagines, fantasizes about the future – days as they should be.
Man lives in the past and in the future. The beasts live only in the present. But they are not aware
that this is the present. They cannot be aware of the present. Only one who is aware of past and
future can be aware of the present, because the present is sandwiched between past and future.
The animals have no anxiety. The memory does not disturb them, and imaginations don’t stir their
hearts. They are simple. Existence has no complexity for them. When they live, they live; when they die, they die. They are innocent. Time has not entered to corrupt their being.
But man lives in time. Is aware that he is, but is not aware who he is. And that becomes a great
problem: Who am l? This is the fundamental question that any man can ask. Out of this fundamental question is all philosophy, all religion, all poetry, all art – different ways of raising the question: Who am l? different ways of answering it. But the question is one: Who am l?
If you try to understand man’s life, you will see this single question persisting. Yes, the man who is
mad after money is also trying to answer the question: Who am l? By having money, he thinks that
he will know who he is – he will know he is a rich man. He will have a certain identity. The man who
is searching for power is basically trying to answer the question: Who am I? By becoming a prime
minister of a country he will know: I am the prime minister.
But these answers are superficial and are not going to satisfy really. They can satisfy only the
mediocre. They cannot satisfy the really intelligent person. Even when you have become very rich,
your intelligence will go on persisting, asking, ”Who are you? Yes, you have money, but who are
you? You are not the money – you cannot be that which you possess. Who is this possessor? Yes,
you have become the prime minister of a country, but that is just a function, that is not your being.
Who are you? Who is this person who was not a prime minister and is now a prime minister, and
tomorrow may not be again? This prime-ministership is just an episode – in whose life?”
The question persists. It can’t be answered by these superficial efforts and endeavors. But basically man is trim to do that. He becomes a husband, he becomes a mother, father, this and that... but the basic urge is somehow to have a certain identity: ”I am the wife, I am the husband, I am the father, I am the mother.” Still you have not answered the question. Your being a mother or your being a father is just accidental, on the surface. Your innermost core remains untouched.
This is not real identity. This is a pseudo identity. The child will die – then who are you? Then you
are not the mother. The husband may leave – then who are you? Then you are no more a wife.
These identities are very fragile, and man lives constantly in the crisis of identity. He tries hard to fix some definition around himself, but they go on slipping out of his hands.
Only the religious person really asks the question, and asks in the right direction.
The Buddha exists just like the beast. The Buddha knows just like man that he is. But a third
dimension has opened: he knows who he is – he has come to see his innermost being. He has not
searched for the identity in the outside world, because there can’t be any identity. How can it be in
the outside world? You ARE your inferiority, you ARE your inwardness, you ARE your subjectivity – how can you know it through objects?
You may have a beautiful house, but it is outside. You may have beautiful art, paintings, antique art works, but they are outside! They can’t define you. You remain undefined by them. One day the house is on fire and all your identity is burnt, and. you are standing on the road, again puzzled:
”Who am I?”
That’s why people commit suicide. If their money is gone, if they become bankrupt, they commit
suicide. Why do they commit suicide? One wonders – why? Money can be earned again.... Look
deep into them – that was their identity. They had believed long that ”This is me.” Now all that bank balance is gone. Again the problem arises: Who am l? And they wasted their whole life in creating that bank balance. Now they are not ready to go into that effort again. It is too much. They have utterly failed.
In fact, by being. a bankrupt the suicide has already happened! Their identity is gone. They no
longer know now who they are. Their face has disappeared. How can they live without a face? Your woman dies whom you had loved... and you commit suicide, or you start thinking of committing suicide! because that woman was your identity. Now you are left alone, empty. And to start from the very beginning, from scratch, seems to be too much. It is better to finish this whole thing.
These are the three stages. And when I say the beast, there are many men who are like the beast.
They are – they are not even aware that they are. They live mechanically. There are many people
who are men – they know they are, but they don’t know who they are. And there are only few and
far between, those rare people, who know who they are. They become three dimensional.
Man is a bridge between the beast and the Buddha. Remember, man is a bridge. Don’t make your
house on the bridge; the bridge is not meant for that. The bridge has to be crossed. Don’t remain
a man, otherwise you will remain in anxiety and anguish – because man is not a place to stay and
abide. It is a passage to be passed. It is a ladder! You cannot stay on the ladder. It is only a link
from one point to another point.
The beast is, and is in a certain state of contentment. No anxiety, no fear, no death, no ambition,
no longing; utterly calm and quiet. But unaware, unconscious. The Buddha is again contented,
utterly at peace, at home; has arrived, the journey is finished. There is nowhere to go, he has
attained. Between these two is man: half-beast, half-Buddha. Hence the tension: one part moving
backwards, one part moving forwards.
Man is torn apart.
Let me repeat: Man is not a being yet. Man has lost one kind of being – the being of a beast. And
man has not yet attained another kind of being – the being of a Buddha. And man is constantly
moving between these two beings, between these two banks.
You cannot go back, because in existence there is no backward movement. You cannot go back in
time; time has only one dimension: it flows forward. You can go only forward. Don’t waste your time in thinking that you can also be a beast and can live like a beast: eat, drink and be merry. It is not possible for a human being. He will have to think, he will have to contemplate. He cannot afford non-thinking. And it is very risky to do that, because then you will be stuck and you will become a pool of dirty water. Your freshness, your aliveness is possible only if you go on flowing and flowing till you reach the ocean. That ocean I am calling the Buddha – the Buddha state of consciousness.
Man HAS to become a Buddha. Create that intense desire, that intense longing, to become a
Buddha. Be in a passionate search for it. Put ALL the energy that you have! Become aflame
with that longing... and you can become a Buddha. And the day you become a Buddha, you have
become a being again – and a being on a higher level, on the highest Level. There is nothing higher than that.
You ask me: WHAT EXACTLY IS MAN?
As man, man is nothing exact – just a vague phenomenon, cloudy, foggy. Man is not exact because
he is a crowd. Man is many men; hence he is foggy. The unity is missing. You don’t have the center – the center arises only through consciousness. Man simply lives like a driftwood.
That’s why I say man is a mere perhaps, a bewildering paradox, an absurd being. He is and he is
not. He is an in-between. He is the only animal that can make a fool of himself. No animals can
make fools of themselves – only man, because man has the capacity to become wise.
If you don’t grow into wisdom, you will behave like a fool. That’s what the majority of the people in
the world ARE doing. If you watch from a detached viewpoint, you will be surprised how people are
living... in such a mess, in such confusion, in such madness. How are they moving? They are not
moving at all – they are jogging on the same place.
And if you watch man, you will be surprised: it is very rare to come across a wise man. Fools and
fools... fools abound. But remember: no other animal can behave like a fool. Have you seen a dog
behaving like a fool? Never. Because they cannot be wise they cannot be took. Both the possibilities arise simultaneously.
Watch yourself. Watch your foolishnesses. Be constantly alert about what you are doing with your
life. It is a precious life. It is of such value that you cannot measure, you cannot evaluate it. But
because it is given to you as a gift, you don’t appreciate its value. Because it has been just a
blessing from God, you have taken it for granted. This is foolish! Don’t take it for granted. This is an opportunity to grow.
And you have to answer to God for what you did with your life. Have you come the same as you had gone? Or even worse? Think of this, that man is answerable. And unless you are a Buddha you will not be able to answer. Because to be a Buddha is to be a God – and that is your intrinsic possibility.
And unless you are a God, you will not feel contented.
And only then will you know what exactly you are. Right now, you are nothing, a mere Lee r leapt....
The second question:
Question 2
BELOVED OSHO, I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO YOUR WORDS FOR SOMETIME AND I
CAN ACCEPT EVERYTHING YOU SAY ON TRUTH AND NO-TRUTH. ONLY ONE QUESTION
REMAINS IN MY MIND: IF MY ENLIGHTENMENT DEPENDS ON ME AND MY RELATIONSHIP
WITH TOTALITY AND NOTHING ELSE, WHAT IS THE POINT IN MY SURRENDERING TO A
HUMAN MASTER?
THE MASTER IS NOT HUMAN, only looks human. The Master his a passage to the totality. This is the beauty of being a disciple, because only the disciple is able to see that the Master is not human. The curious visitors, or the students, who have come to gather a little bit of knowledge here, will not be able to see that. And then this question will arise.
Kenneth, you are right: you are here, still, unrelated to me. You are here uncommitted to me. You
are here un involved with me.
You are a spectator, not a participant. And the greater mysteries become available to those who
DARE to participate. Don’t remain a spectator, otherwise I will remain human. Become a participant! and you will see a transforming vision. You will see that something has changed in you. I am the same! But when you become a disciple, you have the eyes which can see that the Master is not human.
If the Master is human, he is not the .Master. He is only a teacher. To the student I remain a teacher. To the spectator, how can I be available in my totality? Unless you come close... and what ELSE is discipleship? – courage to come close to somebody where death is possible, courage to come close to a fire where you will be burnt to ashes. And only then is there resurrection.
Jesus was a human being to the Jews who crucified him. But he was not a human being to Luke,
to Thomas, to Mark. To the disciples he was Christ, son of God. To the spectators, to the crowd,
he was the son of the carpenter Joseph, son of man, and of a very ordinary man. They were not
watching the same person, remember; although they were looking at the same person, they were
not seeing the same person at all. Their visions made the difference. To the disciples, Buddha was not human. Hence, they called him Bhagwan. But to the spectators he was just as human as anybody else. And the problem is that the disciple cannot prove it – these things are beyond proof. They are, but they are not available to proof. And those who were saying that Buddha is just human were more logical – because he feels hunger, becomes thirsty, falls ill. These are the proofs that he is human!
What more proof do you need? Became old, and died of food poisoning. What more proof do you
need? How can God die? Human beings die; God is eternal. How can God fall ill? And Buddha
falls ill. His private physician, Jivaka, has to follow him continuously. Does God need a physician?
Only a human being needs a physician.
When it is hot, Buddha perspires. What more proof do you need?! When it is cold, he shivers. A
thousand and one proofs can be gathered together that he is just like us. What is the difference?
And the disciple will always be at a loss, although the disciple will laugh about all these proofs,
because these are just stupid things that have been collected by the people. They are irrelevant
facts, because the disciple has come so close that he has been able to have a contact with the
Master’s soul – the Master’s body has become irrelevant. The body is just a vehicle.
If I am traveling in a car and the car is broken, I am not broken. If the car is rattling and making all kinds of noises, that is just in the mechanism of the car. So is the body – a vehicle. But something deeper than the body is there, something higher than the body is there – something of the totality. A window has opened into totality.
Who is a Master? One who is in tune with totality.
To be in love with a Master is to approach totality. To you, totality will be just a word. You can
understand it intellectually. And that’s what has happened to Kenneth.
He says: I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO YOUR WORDS FOR SOME TIME, AND I CAN ACCEPT EVERYTHING YOU SAY ON TRUTH AND NO-TRUTH.
This is an intellectual understanding. You must be an intelligent person! So what I say, you
understand. I am not using very difficult words; my expression is as simple and common as anybody else’s. I am not using a special terminology. I am not using any jargon, so you can understand. There is no problem in it.
But to understand that which I say is one thing, and to understand me is quite another. If you only
understand that which I am saying, you will gather only the superficial; you will miss the essential,
because the essential cannot be said. The Tao that can be said is not the true Tao. And the God
that can be uttered is not the real God. Religion in its fundamental richness remains unexpressed.
So what I am saying is not that which I am.
Buddha was passing through a forest. The whole forest was full of dry leaves; leaves were falling.
The trees were naked. His disciple, Ananda, asked him, ”Bhagwan, a question has been persisting
in my mind again and again. And now I cannot resist – I have to ask it. This is my question: you
have told us many things – have you told all that you know? or is it only a part?”
Buddha took a few leaves, dry leaves, from the ground in his hand and said, ”Ananda, how many
leaves have I in my hand?”
Ananda said, ”Not more than a dozen, just a few.”
And Buddha said, ”How many leaves are in this forest?”
And Ananda said, ”Millions and millions – cannot be counted.”
And Buddha said, ”So is the case, Ananda: what I have said is just like the leaves in my hand, and
what I have not said is like the leaves in this whole forest. But don’t think that I am a miser, that
I don’t want to say those things – they cannot be said by their very nature. It is impossible to say
them.”
The student will learn only that which has been said. The disciple learns that which is not said and
cannot be said. To the student, words reach, and he will become knowledgeable. To the disciple,
the being reaches, and he becomes knowing, not knowledgeable.
That is the function of the relationship between a Master and a disciple. It is a love affair! It is
intimacy. It is ajar more intense intimacy than happens in any other love. When two persons are in
love, it is the intensity of sexual desire, a physical closeness. Soon it will disappear. It is not going
to last long. It is momentary, because sexual energy is momentary. The body is momentary.
The relationship between a Master and a disciple is the relationship between two souls which are
eternal. Once established, it Kenneth, you say: I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO YOUR WORDS FOR SOME TIME AND I CAN ACCEPT EVERYTHING YOU SAY ON TRUTH AND NO-TRUTH.
And it is not a question of acceptance either. It is a question of being DROWNED in me! Accepting, you remain yourself. Accepting, you are not coming out of your ego. You say, ”Yes, my logic also says this is right – I agree.” This is a kind of agreement. You remain you, I remain me, and there is a kind of agreement. But when you dissolve, it is not a kind of agreement. It is not that you accept what I say. There is no question of acceptance or nonacceptance .
Remember: if you accept, any day you can reject – because there is no guarantee that tomorrow
also I will be saying the same thing. Today you have accepted something that I have said; tomorrow you may not be able to accept it.
But the disciple is one for whom acceptance, non-acceptance, have become meaningless. He is
drowned in me. So if today I am saying one thing, he listens joyously. And there never arises an
idea whether to accept it or reject it – there is no question because there is no separation. As if what I am saying, he is saying. Not that he agrees. There is nobody to agree with it. Not that he nods his head in agreement – that head has disappeared; there is nothing to nod. Then tomorrow, even if I say just the opposite of it, there is no problem, because there is nobody to reject.
Yesterday it was like that. Today it is like this. Tomorrow it will be like that. His attunement with
my being is so total that he understands. It is not a question of acceptance but of tremendous
understanding – which knows no rejection. This is trust. Between the Master and the disciple
blooms a flower called trust. And it is trust that leads you to God, to totality.
You say: ONLY ONE QUESTION REMAINS IN MY MIND...
And that is not one question – that is thousands of questions. In one question are condensed all the
questions possible.
IF MY ENLIGHTENMENT DEPENDS ON ME AND MY RELATIONSHIP WITH TOTALITY AND NOTHING...
Yes, I say again and again: Your enlightenment depends on you – but not as you are today, not as
you are now. This you has to go. Another kind of you has to come into existence. This you is the
barrier; enlightenment doesn’t depend on it. Otherwise, it could have happened already. This ’I’ that you are carrying, this person Kenneth, in you who says ”I am” – no, on this enlightenment does not depend. It is the barrier, it is the hindrance.
If this ’I’ dies, then a different kind of phenomenon arises in you – which is no more ’I’ but a kind of pure ’amness’. When you say ”I am,” I is false, am is true. And you will need a Master to destroy your I and to free your am. That amness, undefined, pure existence, being, innocence – that amness is the door to enlightenment.
But where are you going to drop your I? That I is surrounding your am so much that you cannot even conceive what amness will mean without I. In fact, the question will arise: How can there be amness if there is no l? I seems to be more important; am seems to be just shadow to it. The truth is just the opposite.
I is false: amness is the truth.
And when you surrender to a Master, you don’t surrender your amness – it CANNOT be surrendered – you only surrender your I. A Master takes away things which you believe you have but you don’t have. A Master takes away your diseases only. And when all the diseases have been taken away, health wells up.
The health cannot be given by the Master, that’s true – because a given thing will be a given thing.
And if it is given, it can be taken away. If it is a given thing, somebody can steal it. If it is a given
thing, somewhere you can forget, lose track of it. A given thing is not of much importance. The
Master never gives you truth: he only takes your lies away. When all the rocks of the lies have been removed, truth flows. That is your innermost spring. Nobody needs to give it to you.
But who will take your I? Who will drink this poison of your I? You will need somebody who has come to a point where his immortality is revealed to him – he can drink all your poison.
You must have seen pictures of Shiva. A beautiful myth is behind those pictures. If you have looked closely into a Shiva picture, you will see that his throat is blue. That is a very very beautiful story.
DEVAS, gods, and the anti-gods, ASURAS, were churning the ocean to find elixirs – but you cannot find elixir directly. It is hidden deep. The first thing that they came across was not elixir but poison. Now who should drink the poison?
Shiva drank it. That’s why his throat has become blue. Only HE could drink it. You can drink death
only when you know you are deathless.
When the disciple comes to the Master, he brings all kinds of poisons. Unknowingly he has been
nourishing those poisons. And the ego is the greatest poison. And before your immortality can be
revealed to you, your poison has to be removed. Who is going to drink it?! Only one who knows that he is deathless can drink it.
The Master drinks all the poison out of the disciple’s system. Slowly slowly, he takes away all the
poisons from the disciple. And one day, when all the poison has been taken out, the immortal is
there in all its glory.
You say to me: ONLY ONE QUESTION REMAINS IN MY MIND: IF MY ENLIGHTENMENT
DEPENDS ON ME...
Certainly it depends on you, but not as you are right now. This you is false. This you has to go. This you has to cease, then the real you will arrive.
... AND MY RELATIONSHIP WITH TOTALITY AND NOTHING ELSE, WHAT IS THE POINT IN MY SURRENDERING TO A HUMAN MASTER?
It is certainly true that the question is of your relationship with totality and nothing else is needed – but as long as you are, you will resist totality, you will fight totality. You cannot relate with totality. You have to go, only then is the relationship there.
The Master is needed only to take away all that is unnecessarily around you – the hindrances, the
barriers. The Master will give you your real being by taking all that is unreal in you. When you
surrender to a Master, you surrender only the unreal because you have only the unreal! If you
already have the real, there is no point in surrendering to a Master. But if you HAD that, you would not have been here in the first place.
What are you doing here? Why are you even listening to me? For what? It all depends on you and
your relationship with totality... why listen to me? This must be somewhere a deep ego which is
rationalizing. The ego is VERY clever. When it listens to such statements, that the enlightenment
depends on you, the ego says, ”Look, so it depends on me – there is no need to surrender.” When it is said that it is only a question of your being with totality, the ego says, ”Perfectly true – there is no need to surrender.”
I am not interested in your surrender at all – because what have you got to surrender to me? Only
diseases, poisons. You have no riches to surrender to me! Only miseries, frustrations, despairs,
anxieties. What have you got to surrender to me? But people cling even to their misery. They think it is some kind of treasure. Watch the cunning ways of the ego.
And when you surrender to a Master, you surrender only all that is false. And in that surrendering,
the Master is just an excuse. If you can surrender directly to the totality, perfectly good – you go
and surrender to totality. But where are you going to find the totality? Where? You don’t have the
eyes to see the totality. And totality cannot be encountered directly. You will come across it only in
indirect ways. You will fall in love with a woman – surrender! because the woman represents a kind
of totality. The feminine aspect of it. You may fall in love with a friend – surrender! He represents
another kind of totality, another aspect of it. Another window opens. You love music – surrender!
Don’t go on using this word ’totality’. ”Why should I surrender to music? I am going to surrender to totality. Why should I surrender to love? I am going to surrender to totality. Why should I surrender to beauty? I am going to surrender to totality.”
Where will you find totality? Totality exists in millions of forms... the beauty of the sunrise, and the
silence of the night, and the loving eyes of a friend, and the warm hand of a woman. These are ALL gestures of totality. Totality comes in these ways. These are totality’s approaches towards you. The Master is the CLEAREST way of totality reaching towards you, a CONSCIOUS way of totality reaching to you. The woman is unconscious, the friend is unconscious – they are unconsciously parts of totality. A Master is consciously part of totality; hence, there is no substitute for a Master. Jesus is right when he says: I am the way – unless you go through me, you will not reach. He is not talking only about himself – the Master is speaking. And whenever a Master speaks, he speaks for all the Masters, past, present future.
The third question:
Question 3
WHY AM I SO AFRAID TO ASK YOU A QUESTION?
EVERYBODY IS, BECAUSE TO ASK a question means to put your head in front of me. And one
never knows what I am going to do with your head. I may hit, I may cut it. I may make a football of
it... nobody knows! Fear is natural.
One thing is certain, that I am going to do something drastic. Fear is nothing out of place, but still
ask – because that is the purpose of your being here and my being here.
Ask if a question arises; don’t be afraid. And if you are very much afraid, you can do one thing a few people do: you can ask in somebody else’s name. Then he gets the beating and you envoy.
But ask. Without asking, it will persist. And it may be important; it may have something of immense importance. It may change... the answer may become a new vision. In spite of the fear, go on asking – till questions disappear and the questioner disappears too.
But fear is natural.
I have heard:
A man came to a doctor complaining that he had an uncontrollable cough. The doctor gave him a
bottle of castor oil and said, ”Go home and drink down the entire bottle and come back tomorrow. ”
When the patient came back next day, the doctor asked, ”Did you take the castor oil?”
The man answered, ”Yes.”
The doctor then continued, ”Do you still cough?”
The patient said, ”Yes, I continue to cough.”
The doctor gave him a second bottle of castor oil and said ”Take this, and come back tomorrow.”
The next day the man returned. The doctor asked him, ”Do you still cough?”
And the patient said, ”Yes, I still cough regularly.”
The doctor then gave him yet another bottle of castor oil, and said, ”Drink this entire bottle tonight and come back tomorrow morning.”
The patient returned and the doctor looked at the poor wretch and said, ”Do you cough now?”
The patient quiveringly answered, ”I don’t cough any more – I am afraid to.”
You go on asking questions and I will go on giving you castor oil bottles. Sooner or later, one day
you will be afraid to cough – afraid to ask a question.
Your system has to be cleansed. Your question should not be just out of curiosity. Remember
that. Never ask a question just out of curiosity; that is meaningless. If a question has something
important for you, if your life depends on it, if it has something to do with your lifestyle, with your
habits – mechanical, robot like – if it has something about it that if it is solved you will become more aware, ask it. Don’t ask metaphysical questions, because they are not going to change you.
Ask psychological questions – only they are going to transform you.
Bertrand Russell has said: There are three possibilities of man’s approach towards life. One is
conflict with nature, second is conflict with other human beings, and third is conflict with oneself.
The first has been the way of the Western philosophy, Western science, Western speculation,
thinking. A fight with nature. The Western mill became objective: How to transform nature? – that
became the root question. They have not been able to transform it, although they have destroyed it. They have destroyed the rhythm of nature. They have destroyed the ecosystem. They have created havoc in nature’s harmony. And now there seems to be no going back. The earth is dying.
There seems to be only one possibility, that man should migrate from this planet to another planet.
Within a hundred years it will be impossible to live on this earth. It is almost turning into a corpse.
This earth has been so much raped by science, so much wounded, crippled, paralyzed, because of
that approach: conquer nature! And man became absolutely absorbed and occupied with only one
thing: how to conquer nature? – and forgot everything else.
The Chinese mind has moved in a different way. Its sole concern has been: How to live with man?
Its concern has been social. Man is a social animal. How to create better moralities? How to create better social systems? How to have a better society? a higher culture? a better civilization? About nature, the Chinese mind has not been in conflict. It appreciates nature, it loves nature. Nature has an aesthetic value for the Chinese. Enjoy it! There is no need to conquer. Celebrate it! There is no need to fight. The basic problem for the Chinese mind has been: How should we make man more human? The whole struggle is: How to destroy between man and man, – hatred, anger, rage, animality – the beast-like attitudes, the violence? China has created one of most civilized cultures there ever has been.
The Indian mind has taken the third route: How to transform oneself? The West has given birth to
science, China has given birth to a higher quality sociology, India has given birth to the supreme
science of psychology – the science of the soul. That’s exactly what psychology means. In fact,
Western psychology should not call itself psychology, because it is not a science of the soul at all.
On the contrary, it only observes human behavior – from the outside. It thinks about man also as an object. It reduces man’s dignity. It turns man into a mechanism.
It is not important for the Western psychology to think: What is inside man? All that is important is what he DOES, how he functions – his behavior. But in the Indian consciousness, the only basic
problem has been: How to conquer oneself? How to raise one’s consciousness to the highest peak
possible? How to become a Buddha? These three approaches have been prevalent.
Never ask a question which is not really of any concern to your spiritual growth. My whole concern here is to help you become more conscious. Don’t ask stupid questions. And sometimes even very intelligent people ask stupid questions.
Just the other night I was reading an ancient book written by a great Hindu philosopher, Kumaril. He criticizes Buddha on many accounts, but one thing was so ridiculous that I could not believe that a man of the intelligence of Kumaril should raise such a question!
It is said – by the disciples of Buddha, of course – that he was all-knowing. ’All-knowing’ does not
mean that he was a kind of Encyclopedia Britannica. ’All knowing means that he knew all that is
worth knowing. ’All-knowing’ means that he knew all that is helpful for the consciousness to grow.
And what has this Kumaril done? He says, ”This is wrong, because he did not know how many
insects are in the world.” Now this Brahmin, Kumaril, must have been a stupid kind of person.
How many insects there are in the world Buddha did not know, so he is not all-knowing.
Sometimes it can happen: you may be an intelligent person on the surface, you may have logical
acumen, cleverness, and still, deep down, you are stupid. Now what kind of question is this? It is so
absurd just to think of it.
Never ask a question which is not relevant to your spiritual growth. And whenever a question arises about your spiritual growth, put all fear aside – you have to ask it! Even if my answer shatters you, even if I hit HARD on your head, I do that, I teach you, by hammering your head... I keep an invisible hammer in my hand always, and whenever I see that some skull is worth breaking, I really break it. But you will be grateful one day that your skull was broken, that you were killed in your stupidities. So whatsoever the cause of your fear, you have to ask it. That is the only way to come closer to me. Each question asked, answered, brings you closer.
And I am not saying that if there is no question, then too you have to ask – then there is no problem.
Don’t ask if you don’t have any question. That too happens. People are such that they live in
extremes. There are people who write to me: ”So many people ask questions and I have not asked
a single question up to now – am I doing something wrong?” If you don’t have a question, there is
no need to ask one. But if you HAVE a question, it has to be asked – whatsoever the cost.
The fourth question:
Question 4
WHAT IS A MYSTICAL EXPERIENCE?
MARGO, FIRST: a mystical experience is not an experience at all. It is called ’mystical experience’
because we have to call it something, but it is not an experience at all.
An experience is always outside you. You see the clouds in the sky, or the lightning in the sky. Or,
you can see the same inside too: you can close your eyes and you can see light inside That too
is outside – because the seer remains always outside the seen, the observer remains outside the
observed, the experiencer remains outside the experienced. And the mystical experience is not
something outside you: it is very special kind of experience, unique.
What is its uniqueness?
The experience and the experienced become one, the knower and the known become one. There
is no division at all. It is not that you see something, but that you are it. God is never experi-enced
as an object : God is always experienced as your innermost being,. ”ANA’L HAQ!” declares Al-
Hillaj Mansoor – ”I am God! ” the Sufi says. Or ”AHAM BRAHMASMI!” the Upanishads declare –
”I am all!” It is not an experience! All experiences have been dissolved. Nothing is left. Only pure
consciousness is there, but in that pure consciousness this understanding arises. The knower and
the known are no more separate.
The mystical experience is such that you are involved in it with your totality. It is not in the head, it is not in the heart either; it is not in the body, it is not in the mind, it is not in the soul only. It pulsates all over you and beyond you. It pulsates with your totality.
I have heard a very ancient parable:
Once it happened, three saints, very famous saints, well-known saints, were passing through a
forest. They all had worked hard, disciplined their lives arduously. They were great seekers. One
was a bhakti yogi – a follower on the path of devotion, love, prayer. Another was a gyan yogi – a
follower on the path of knowledge, wisdom, intelligence, awareness. And the third was a karma yogi – a follower on the path of action, service, commitment.
They all had done all that a man can do, all that is humanly possible, but yet they had not experienced God. Now they were getting old, and getting a little bit frustrated too. Time was slipping out of their hands, and the goal was as far away as ever, and coldness was settling. But that day a miracle happened.
Suddenly, it started raining,. They all had to rush into a small temple. The temple was very small;
just four pillars and a roof, open from all sides, and the rain was really strong, and the wind was
strong, and the wind was bringing rainwater inside the temple. It was getting wet almost over the
place. So they all had to stand just in the middle, surrounding the Shivalinga – it must have been a
Shiva temple. And as the water started coming more and more inwards, they had to come closer
and closer.
They were coming so close that they were touching coach other. Suddenly, when they touched each
other, they felt that they were not three there but four. Surprised, startled... and the fourth, and the
presence of the fourth, was so strong that they asked each other, ”What are you feeling?” And they all said, ”Something strange is present here.”
Slowly slowly, the presence became very very clear and radiant. It was such ecstasy to see that
presence. They all fell on their knees, and they asked the presence – because it was SO clear that
it was God and nobody else – they asked, ”Why? We have worked our whole life and we could not
even see a glimpse of you, and today what has happened? Why have you suddenly come?”
And God laughed and said, ”Because you all are together here. Touching each other, you have
become total. And I can only be available to you when you are total. Now, you are not fragments.
Up to now you have been fragments: one was working through the heart, another was working
through the head, and the third was working through the body. You were fragmentary. And I am not available to the fragments: I,am available only when somebody becomes total. In this moment, your energies met and mingled with each other.
”I have always followed you, but have remained invisible because the I can only see me when it
is total. Now you can touch me! Now you can have me! You have been missing me for only one
reason: you were adamant, stubborn; you were clinging to one fragment – and God is a totality.”
This is my message to you: A mystical experience is a total experience – of the body, of the mind,
of the soul. ALL IS INVOLVED IN IT. Nothing is outside it. So don’t reject anything in your life; let everything be absorbed. That’s why I say ’from sex to super consciousness’ – everything has to be absorbed in it, nothing has to be rejected. The person who rejects anything has rejected God
himself – because God IS totality.
Accept all, appreciate all. Rejoice in all! And let your life become a total organic unity. When you are organically one, you will have that orgasmic, oceanic experience called the mystic experience. It is not an experience... you ARE it. The experience is not separate from it.
God is not seen: one becomes God.
Liberation does not happen to you: you become liberation. Nirvana is not something in your hands:
you are Nirvana. Enlightenment is not something that happens in you: you are it!
Hence, though we call it, ’spiritual experience’, it really cannot be called spiritual experience. There are sexual experiences, but no spiritual experiences. There are aesthetic experiences, but no spiritual experiences. There are MANY kinds of experiences, but spiritual, mystical experience
is not one of them: it is absolutely a separate reality. It is all alone. It is a category in itself.
The Perfect Master, Vol 1 173 Osho
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