GOING
WITH THE FLOW MAKES YOU FEEL HAPPY. And you cannot allow happiness. Happiness
has become associated’ with guilt. Go back, to your childhood – you will find causes
there. Just remember, go backwards; try to find out when it happened.
A
small child knows nothing of guilt; he is wild and primitive. That’s why to see
a small child is such a joy. He is as yet uncrippled, he is as yet uncivilized.
He has not been introduced to the disease called civilization – that’s why he
has so much energy, so much flow. The child is streaming, vibrating; he is a
great dynamo; he is all dance. He cannot contain himself – he has so much that
he is overflowing.
You cannot
make a child sit silently. Why? Because the energy is so much, uncontainable.
The
child wants to enjoy everything, and the parents are guilt-ridden. The child
wants to shout
and he
enjoys shouting; that is his expression, that is his creativity. That shout, if
helped and not
destroyed,
will become his song – that is the beginning of the song. But we stop him. We
say, ”Don’t shout! This is ugly, this is bad, this is unmannerly. This is not
done in the society. You belong to a famous family, you belong to a great,
respectable family – you should not do this. This is okay for the urchins, but
not for you. You represent us: look how serious we are. We never shout – and
you are shouting?”
And
the child was enjoying the shouting so much. In fact, when you stop him
shouting you have
condemned
his joy – that’s what he will understand deep down, existentially. What will
happen to him? He cannot understand why shouting is wrong; he has as yet no
mind to understand that kind of rubbishness. He was enjoying – that he
understands; that shouting brings such joy, such flow. He feels so high, he
feels so turned on. Just by shouting, his energy starts moving, he becomes a riverlike
flow, he becomes a roaring phenomenon, a tidal wave.
Now
you say, ”Don’t shout – this is bad.” What are you saying actually? How will
the child translate it? The child will think, ”My joy is not accepted.” The
child does not want to go to sleep; he is feeling so alive and you force him
and you drag him to the bed. He is trying to get away from you and he is
saying, ”I am NOT feeling like sleep. I DON’T want to go to sleep. I want to
play a little more!” But you don’t listen. You say, ”It is time and you have to
go to sleep.”
Now
what are you doing to the child? You are rejecting – you are rejecting his
instinctive
understandings.
He does not feel like going to sleep right now – how can he be made to sleep?
There
is no way! You can force him; he will lie there underneath the blanket and will
weep and cry and will feel rejected, will feel unaccepted by the family, will
feel guilty about why he cannot go to sleep when the mother wants him to. Now,
what can he do? The sleep is not coming. And in the morning when he is feeling
sleepy, you drag him out and you say, ”Get out! It is time to get up.” And he
wants to sleep a little more.
Now
you interfere – wherever he feels joy, you interfere. Naturally, you make him
feel again and
again
that his joy is wrong. That gets deep into your bloodstream. That’s what has happened
to you, . So whenever you are going with the flow it means something is wrong.
You are feeling happy? you immediately hear
your
mother’s voice: ”, what are you doing? Feeling happy? Betraying me? Betraying
your
dad,
betraying your family? Look how serious we are – and is it good to betray your
mother? Look at what long faces we have – and what are you doing? flowing with
the flow? going with the flow? Never has it happened in our family! And it
should not happen. ”
You
start feeling guilty. Just watch when you start feeling guilty, listen
silently... you will find your
parental
voices, your mother, your father, your teacher, saying, ”This is not right.”
While
you make love to a man, you will feel guilty, because your mother has told you
that this is
wrong,
this is the greatest sin. When you start making love to a man, something in you
feels it is not right – -the mother is standing there, the father is standing
there, and it looks so embarrassing with the parents standing... and you are
making love to a man?! What are you doing? Stop it! You may not stop, but you
will not go totally into it – which is far worse than stopping. It is better to
stop! You cannot stop either, because then your whole nature feels
discontented. And you cannot go totally in it because your mind says this is
wrong. So you go half-heartedly, half way, and you exist in a limbo.
You
never go to the totality of it – SO YOU NEVER FEEL SATISFIED. Out of it you
only gather more frustration; you again find you have failed once more, that’s
all. It has not happened this time again. And you start wondering whether this
orgasm is just an invention, whether some masochistic people have invented it,
or some sadistic people have invented it, just to make people feel tortured – because
it is not happening to me!
You
will be surprised: this is the first century after at least five thousand years
that a few women
are
feeling orgasm. For five thousand years, women have NOT felt orgasm. That too
is happening only in the Western hemisphere. I have not come across a single
Indian woman who feels orgasm – she has not even heard about the word. In
Indian languages we don’t have any word for orgasm – because the thing has not
existed so the word was never needed. Even in the West, only ten, twelve percent
of women are feeling orgasm. This is ugly! and what to say about men? Do you
think men feel orgasm? Ejaculation is not orgasm. Orgasm
is a
very very different phenomenon. So man can deceive himself easily because he
can feel
ejaculation, so he thinks he has orgasm –
that is not so. Ejaculation is a very local phenomenon,
Orgasm
is ecstasy. Orgasm is getting lost into timelessness. Orgasm is when your whole
body
vibrates
with some unknown energy that you have never come across. Orgasm is when you
are
very
close to God. The word orgasm comes from ORGIA – it was a religious ceremony, a
pagan ceremony, when people became ecstatic, so ecstatic, that their whole body
was full of divine energy, and they were bursting with energy, and they were
lost in that energy – that was called ORGIA. It was a religious pagan ceremony;
it was something like Tantra. It was Dionysian. The word ’orgasm’ comes from that
ceremony. Men also rarely feel it. When your whole body throbs, not only your
sexual organ but your whole body throbs, from toe to head you become a sexual
orgasm, you become a sexual organ.... That is the symbol of Shiva; you must
have seen in India the Shiva-linga. You may sometimes be wondering, ”Where are
the eyes and where is the nose and where is the mouth and where are the legs? And
what kind of image is this?”
This
is the symbol of orgasm: when the whole body turns into a sexual organ. From
eyes, mouth, body, mind – all disappear into sexuality, into sensuality, into a
kind of immense sensitivity. That is the meaning of Shiva-linga. Orgasm has
become impossible because you cannot go totally with the flow. And with orgasm becoming
impossible, a thousand and one diseases have become prevalent in man. Wilhelm
Reich is right that if we can bring orgasm back to humanity, almost ninety
percent of mental diseases will IMMEDIATELY disappear – like dewdrops in the
morning when the sun comes.
Ninety
percent of mental diseases exist because man has forgotten how to be
rejuvenated with
God,
how to fall into divine energy, and come back again resurrected. Those blocked
energies are creating problems. But now... first the priest created the guilt,
now the psychoanalyst is against Wilhelm Reich – because, the psychoanalyst,
where will he go if ninety percent of mental diseases disappear? If Reich is
right, then what about the Freudians and the Adlerians and the Jungians and others
– what will happen to them? Reich was condemned as mad, was forced into
imprisonment – and he was one of the greatest geniuses of this age, who had a
real insight. But this is what we always do: we crucify! He died condemned as a
madman in a prison.
Man
has not changed much Two thousand years have passed, but we go on doing the
same as
w e
did with Jesus. Now, this man was releasing a very very significant truth –
that man’s mental illnesses will continue and will go on becoming bigger and
bigger, and soon it will be impossible to treat man. Out of four, three persons
are already abnormal, and the fourth is just on the way, any moment.... This is
not a good situation!
Reich
is right that something has to be done. First the priest was involved, now the
modern priest is the psychoanalyst. First the priest had the investment in
making people feel guilty; he created guilt. Because of guilt, he stopped
people’s being orgasmic. And now the psychoanalyst is enjoying the results –
his profession is flourishing like anything. His is the most needed profession,
and the most respected.
Physicians
are no more needed as much as the psychoanalyst is needed, because the body is
getting
better and better every day and mind is getting worse and worse every day. Guilt
has created human pathology. In the future, the priest is not needed, neither
is the psychoanalyst needed. Both those professions are anti-human; they should
go. But they can go only if man is freed of guilt, otherwise they cannot go.
So, ,
even if you feel guilty, go with the flow. Ignore the guilt. Let the guilt be
there; in spite of
it, go
with the flow! The more you go with the flow, the more you will become able to
catch yourself and avoid getting caught into the trap of guilt you will be able
to catch yourself in time. You will be able to slip out of that guilt prison.
One has to get out of it, otherwise life
will be a long, sad, meaningless anguish
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