Thursday, December 13, 2012


Sometimes it will be frightening, scary, because you will be going into spaces you are not acquainted with. You will be moving beyond yourself. You will be entering into the unknown. And the unknown is always frightening. The new always creates great fear. With the old, one feels perfectly comfortable.
The old always feels cozy, snug. With the new, you have to learn again. With the new you have to become a child again. The new happens only to those who are ready to become children again and again and again – because the old knowledge, the old experience, the old life, will have no meaning in the new. It will be irrelevant. You will suddenly feel ignorant facing the unknown. Hence the fear! Hence the clinging to the past. Remember: the journey to truth is a journey from the old to the new, from the known to the unknown, from the closed to the open. And I can happen to you only in the pauses.
Words are used to create the pauses – not vice versa. I am saying things and talking to you just
to give you an experience of silence. Those pauses are the most significant thing that is being
delivered to you, being transferred to you. Be available in those pauses.
They will tear you apart. They will destroy you. That’s why I say I have come to destroy, not to fulfill. But remember: the ONLY way to fulfillment is through destruction. If you are destroyed utterly, only then will you be utterly new. Through crucifixion is resurrection. Let me first become your crucifixion. Let me first become your cross. And then the second thing follows naturally... nothing has to be done about it. To die is to be reborn. Die in those pauses, in those silences, in those gaps! In those gaps, MY meditativeness is flowing towards you – receive it. Receive it with great joy. Receive it as you would receive a guest, a cherished guest. Open the doors of your heart. And, yes, there will be great chaos with it – I will bring chaos in you – but that is the only way stars are born: out of chaos. I will bring great upheavals in your being, I will uproot you from where you are, because that is the only way to transform, to transplant you onto higher plenitudes of being.
And there are higher and higher plenitudes, there is no end to it. This is an eternal pilgrimage.
I know fear is natural! But don’t get caught by it. Leave it aside. Move in spite of it.
Always remember: the difference between a courageous man and a coward is not that the
courageous man has no fear and the coward has fear – no. That is not the difference. BOTH have fear! in the SAME proportion. Then where is the difference? The difference is that the courageous man goes in spite of the fear, and the coward stops because of the fear. Both have fears! If you can find a courageous man who has no fear, then how will you call him courageous? He will be a machine, not a man. Only machines don’t have fear. But you don’t call machines courageous. How can you call a machine courageous? Courage simply means that something is happening in spite of the fear. The fear is there, the trembling is there, but it is not stopping you, you are not being blocked by it. You use it as a stepping-stone. Shaking, trembling, but still you go into the unknown.
To be a sannyasin is to choose courage.
Both possibilities exist in every human being! fear and courage. All will depend on which you choose between the two. Never choose fear. It cripples. It paralyzes. It destroys you without giving you a chance of resurrection. Courage will ALSO destroy you, but that destruction is very creative – it will give you rebirth.
Fear and courage, both destroy – but fear simply destroys. The seed simply goes rotten. When you sow the seed of courage in the soil, then too it dies – but it doesn’t go rotten. It dies... it dies into a new phenomenon. A sprout comes up.
Courage will kill you as much as fear, but fear will simply kill you without giving you a new life.
Courage will give you a new life. Choose courage – always choose courage. Arduous it is, but it is adventurous too. Difficult it is, uncomfortable, inconvenient it is, but it brings
great ecstasies too. One has to pay the price for those ecstasies.

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